This summer when I was camping, my good friend Paul did a tarot reading for me and these were the cards... I have been meditating on these for the last six months and this was my interpretation of the cards...
Dealing with trust issues. Fear and anxiety as a result--learning to come to terms with what I experienced and moving past them to a new way of thinking and being.
Recognizing the abundance and possibilities of life. Recognizing the potential of now, living in the moment, recognizing what I have now.
Future: Past Lives
Developing a holistic outlook, piecing together the fragments, self-actualization. Remembering/recognizing the past, considering the future, in order to live productively now.
Meditative Card: Courage
This card blew me away. It is the quality I am searching for ... the courage to be a good man, the courage to be a good example as a teacher, the courage to love others, the courage to be myself and let others also be who they will be (not try to force them to be what i think they should be), the courage to deal with dissapointments, the courage to be honest and forthright, the courage to confront injustice and cruelty, the courage to develop my spiritual/creative side, and the courage to live productively.